Why do I look the same in all of my photos? And why did it take me so long to notice?

Summer's nearing an end and I desperately feel as if I've missed something. Compared to eighth grade, I was severely lacking in the "friends" area this summer, but that definitely doesn't bug me as much as it did the first few weeks. I did a few things for the first time, but it just seems incomplete. I will probably still feel the same way the third week of high school, so fuck it. When I was in Tucson, I wanted to go and do all this shit, even though we (Drisana and I), never could but now that I'm back in Wichita, I sit at home and ... blog? I don't really know what the point of that was, because if I really wanted to do something, wouldn't I just go and do it? I miss the all the kids I hung out with in eighth grade, but at the same time, I don't miss a thing about that whole "scene", y'know? I don't dig people who do things just because they're trendy or were in an issue of their little supposed-alternative magazines. What they do isn't alternative or counter-culture at all. Those kids are just as bad as the preppy people that they are going against, which is pure bullshit because all of them act the exact same way. I used to act like that and it makes me sick to think about it. What really upsets me is that these people think they are being anti-conformist, when in reality, they are all just conforming to the same brainwashed shit they think they are running AGAINST. Damn, now I'm just confusing myself with all the rambling and repeating of shit.. Bottom line is that I'm really sick of that crowd and am glad that I am not a part of it any longer. I think that it is better to stick up with what you believe in whether or not it means losing a few people along the way. They can keep their "alternative" beliefs. That's enough rambling for today, I guess... Ciao.